Motherhood journey & birth story continued • •
It was almost as if, the moment I acknowledged or gave energy to exploring the unseen parts of myself that did not want to be a mother, even though I felt that this did not exist beforehand, created a different result.
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The non- attachment, the openness and exploration of this potentiality, the awareness of denial or this being a possibility, the control over this being my path or the grasp onto the deep calling & knowing that this was my destiny~ all brought me to the space, the void, the flow that trusted life would offer me what is truly meant to be.
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So I decided to leave it up to life ~ to creator, the divine mother, Pachamama, and it opened the channel. It manifested literally IMMEDIATELY.
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This ties into one of my deepest philosophies & realizations in this life which is ~ that everything is like one coin with two sides, and we cannot reject or deny the other side, because it does very much exist. We must explore both sides & feel both of them FULLY, to then find the balance and the dance between them and always be aware that one needs the other and that they always both exist simultaneously.
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So, if I did not explore the other side of the coin where I did not want to be a mother, maybe I would not manifest the full experience. Who knows…
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Now~ I can experience the layers of the journey before motherhood, into motherhood, becoming a mother, and embodying a mother to its fullest in this life.
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I experienced the same with pain and pleasure. They are one and the same - two sides of the same coin. We must feel one to know the other.
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To be continued • • •