Motherhood journey & birth story continued • •
In my last weeks of pregnancy, I opened a prayer for my baby girl as I enter the birth portal, and used my pelican wing for the first time in an offering to the waters of the womb, the river, and to my beautiful flower of the waters ~ my daughter. 𓆁𓆃𓆸
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Yes, she has a name ~ the most beautiful name, but that will be revealed after she is born and travels through her huge transition from the waters of the womb in her cozy liquid cocoon, to living breathing earth.
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She revealed her name to me on the new moon in my 7th month of pregnancy, when I sat with a freshly rolled blue lotus sacred lady flower smoke, a moon petal ancient lotus flower tonic and a fresh beeswax candle. A very simple ritual on my bed that night, as I was in agony from a broken rib & torn cartilage after being sick for two weeks from a respiratory infection. That was a whole initiation in itself. The baby was cozied up on that side pressing up against my ribs and I was coughing so hard and vomiting day after day that it blew out my rib and injured me horribly. It hurt so bad to be that pregnant, with my big belly already, not a lot of space to breathe as it was, weeks of being barely capable of taking a deep breath (which was so scary because my breath is my baby’s breath), and then injured ribs for my last months of pregnancy remaining.
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So, I sat there in silence, breathing ever so softly & slowly the best I could on my bed, prayed over my candle and infused it with my new moon intentions, and lit it. I had my eyes closed for hours and I connected to my baby. I whispered to her, caressed her through my skin on top of my belly, sang super soft melodies to connect to her frequency, let her guide my voice telling me what melodic nature she liked, and breathed in the spirit of the blue lotus ( which is extremely symbolic because that is what she revealed herself to me as~ a blue flower of the waters). I started hearing her name softly not knowing what it meant or wanting to attach to that being her “name “.
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She engulfed me in a bright, rich, sapphire blue light and showed me her essence. 𓂍
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To be continued …